今年中秋假期前有星期六日，連同中國國慶日，一共四日假期。甚閑。雖內科深不見底，但近月多困於宿舍讀書，甚為苦悶，是以有一心願到效外散心。本來計劃跟好友黃於中秋前夕到大嶼山露營賞月，惟黃突有工務，只得作罷。
然天無絕人之路。黃之工作正是帶隊到西貢觀月。雖然和原本計劃大有出入，但比留在宿舍，只有勝過百倍，所以便欣意伴行，前往北潭涌。
當夜天色甚好，月色雖不至於姣潔，還說得上明亮。冷月光遍地，仍清楚記得上年跟多名好友於西貢一角露營看天文，都是如此。心想生處之都市，高樓大廈林立，日間陽光全遭阻擋；夜間街燈之暴力，使地上只有人造之身影，而無天然的剪影，今晚之月光月影，更見珍貴。
工作完成，不過是晚上九時，黃和我便吃晚餐。我並無心水，而黃則一心想食牛腩麵。兜兜轉轉於市中心，但見前方一間食店，店內侍應食客老闆正打成一遍。我二話不說便叫了兩碗腩麵，又叫了一碟生菜。腩麵送上，便不客氣，將麵條牛腩一一放進餓透之腸胃，食得津津有味。不知道是人餓，或是好友相聚，還是廚師功力十足，普通兩碗牛腩麵，也好好味。雖位於遊客區，價錢亦公道。
「下次黎試下我地o既雞煲啦，個個街坊都話正！」老闆娘如此說。做街坊生意的，多是真才實料，人情味自在當中，為小便宜殺雞取卵之事，絕少發生。無怪東西好吃。今次無緣食店的名菜，不可不謂走寶！
29 Sept 2012
27 Sept 2012
Baby
The long-awaited dinner with my groupmates was realized last night. On the way to hostel, I talked to my friend AL about my feeling towards the accident last Saturday. Actually, it was quite embarrassing, but I've got some resonance from her as well.
"When I knew that, most likely my nose bridge got fracture, I was quite angry to the opponent. I told my friends via the What's app. But you know, most of them had their busy lives and seldom did they take care about my situation. That I understood completely.
"I had wanted to tell my parents, but I did not do it. I do not want to scare them and I don't want them to stop me from playing football in the future by giving them excuses. I still enjoy football!
"So the problem comes. Without the family members, there's actually no one who really take care of me, when I was in trouble. It was the time that I realize how alone I am. I always joked to you and other people that I am kind of 'Forever alone'. I am not sure if I would really be that. In that case, I am also forever sad.
"You know what. That time I felt like I need some love. That's rare. But I want to put my head onto someone's shoulder and cry heavily, telling her I felt so bad. I want to cry like a baby. You know what. I see my limit and my weakness."
She told me that his boyfriend behaved like that as well, at the times of trouble. In this situation, seemingly I was not the only person to have this response.
"Why do we fall? Because we can learn to pick ourselves up." Somehow I thought of this.
"When I knew that, most likely my nose bridge got fracture, I was quite angry to the opponent. I told my friends via the What's app. But you know, most of them had their busy lives and seldom did they take care about my situation. That I understood completely.
"I had wanted to tell my parents, but I did not do it. I do not want to scare them and I don't want them to stop me from playing football in the future by giving them excuses. I still enjoy football!
"So the problem comes. Without the family members, there's actually no one who really take care of me, when I was in trouble. It was the time that I realize how alone I am. I always joked to you and other people that I am kind of 'Forever alone'. I am not sure if I would really be that. In that case, I am also forever sad.
"You know what. That time I felt like I need some love. That's rare. But I want to put my head onto someone's shoulder and cry heavily, telling her I felt so bad. I want to cry like a baby. You know what. I see my limit and my weakness."
She told me that his boyfriend behaved like that as well, at the times of trouble. In this situation, seemingly I was not the only person to have this response.
"Why do we fall? Because we can learn to pick ourselves up." Somehow I thought of this.
City
Our town is too crowded. BW and I talked about our town when we had a lunch peacefully.
Things have changed. Our town could not endure so many people that coming from Tin Shui Wai or mainland for their consumerism.
Just look at the Yuen Long Plaza, it is not meant to hold so many people as we can see now. The escalator was slow and narrow so it pick few people to get to the 1st floor. And that's why there is usually a long queue before it.
This is not just happen in Yuen Long town. Instead of using a microscope, we can pick up a map and see how our city changed. Shatin does not become a better place for local people but merely for the rich people to get stuff which were made from their country. What local citizen looks for are peaceful weekends to walk around the big plaza. But they are disappointed.
"Now they even talked about tearing our city apart to feed the beast. You know what. They appointed an infamous official to sell the ideas!" He said. I was amused, he has become now a man of ideas and thinking, telling me his concern of our town.
Then I realized that we have changed. But we have changed better.
Things have changed. Our town could not endure so many people that coming from Tin Shui Wai or mainland for their consumerism.
Just look at the Yuen Long Plaza, it is not meant to hold so many people as we can see now. The escalator was slow and narrow so it pick few people to get to the 1st floor. And that's why there is usually a long queue before it.
This is not just happen in Yuen Long town. Instead of using a microscope, we can pick up a map and see how our city changed. Shatin does not become a better place for local people but merely for the rich people to get stuff which were made from their country. What local citizen looks for are peaceful weekends to walk around the big plaza. But they are disappointed.
"Now they even talked about tearing our city apart to feed the beast. You know what. They appointed an infamous official to sell the ideas!" He said. I was amused, he has become now a man of ideas and thinking, telling me his concern of our town.
Then I realized that we have changed. But we have changed better.
23 Sept 2012
Grown-up
Today I had an accident in the football match. I was hit and my nose got hurt. It was swollen and blood kept coming down from the nostril, which forced me to go to the emergency department.
The staff at the pitch asked if I need anyone to accompany with.
I thought of my accident 3 years ago at Tuen Mun, which I fell from a my riding bicycle, making a few laceration and a broken teeth. My friends, despite having fun themselves, accompanied me to go to the emergency department to stay with me after all the treatment. That time was midnight.
They could have gone back home, leaving me at the hospital. But our brotherhood kept us together and I was so relieved that time. I know, I am never walking alone.
But I also understand that friends like that are impossible to find again in the planet, and I thus decided to go to the hospital myself this time. "I have become a grown-up and have to take care of myself!" so I told the staff.
Being kept in the waiting area of the emergency department, no one talked to me, nor anyone I can talk with. But I was not upset. My life will be like that. But what keeps me moving forward and staying strong has always been in my heart which will never dissipate until it stops beating. I am so sure about that.
The staff at the pitch asked if I need anyone to accompany with.
I thought of my accident 3 years ago at Tuen Mun, which I fell from a my riding bicycle, making a few laceration and a broken teeth. My friends, despite having fun themselves, accompanied me to go to the emergency department to stay with me after all the treatment. That time was midnight.
They could have gone back home, leaving me at the hospital. But our brotherhood kept us together and I was so relieved that time. I know, I am never walking alone.
But I also understand that friends like that are impossible to find again in the planet, and I thus decided to go to the hospital myself this time. "I have become a grown-up and have to take care of myself!" so I told the staff.
Being kept in the waiting area of the emergency department, no one talked to me, nor anyone I can talk with. But I was not upset. My life will be like that. But what keeps me moving forward and staying strong has always been in my heart which will never dissipate until it stops beating. I am so sure about that.
18 Sept 2012
Private II
Concerning about the services of skin clinics, I must say that it is far from adequate for Hong Kong citizens. There are quite a few clinics that situated in the Hong Kong island and Kowloon region. But unfortunately, there is by far only one clinic in NTW that is run by HA.
This can be explained by two rationale at least. One is that the government thought that people living in this area do not need a lot of dermatology services (perhaps we are clean enough). Another one is that the government does not care about the people here.
Anyhow, in the end I have the luck to make a consultation with a young dermatologist. Despite her age, she swiftly makes the diagnosis and decided to give me with some topical agents.
But wait. I told the doctor. This kind of medicine was what I had tried before, and I thought that my problems are not to be solved by topical agents.
"Well, I understand." She calmly told me. "But if you really have to solve your problem, you have to go to private sectors for the laser treatment. The public sector is not able to afford the price to solve cosmetic problems." In short, she refused what I needed the most and what I hoped for this year.
We agreed to have a 3-month follow-up. But whether I should come, God knows.
17 Sept 2012
Private I
Friends of mine would know that I have long-term skin problems. Since my start of my secondary school, I was troubled by my itchy skin that I could not resist myself from scratching some parts of my body, particularly the back. As a result, I got some instant relief, but in the long run, those parts have been pigmented because of inflammation. But when I realized it as a complication of my bad habit, it was already too late.
I had consulted a famous doctor at Mong Kok for the problem. From him I received a topical cream, which was supposed to be the secret formula from the doctor that could clean up the pigments. But then it was costly. And even worse, I found it ineffective. Soon I ceased to find that doctor, leaving my skin problems untreated.
Another reason was that I reckoned that famous doctor was actually not a dermatologist.
It was until a caring nurse in the OPD that told me to take care of the skin problem, the skin problem was not on my mind. This time I opted to find a government specialist of skin. It took me one year to make a consultation in a Tuen Mun skin clinic, which was also known as social hygiene clinic.
Don't get me wrong, it also took care of clean people like me.
I had consulted a famous doctor at Mong Kok for the problem. From him I received a topical cream, which was supposed to be the secret formula from the doctor that could clean up the pigments. But then it was costly. And even worse, I found it ineffective. Soon I ceased to find that doctor, leaving my skin problems untreated.
Another reason was that I reckoned that famous doctor was actually not a dermatologist.
It was until a caring nurse in the OPD that told me to take care of the skin problem, the skin problem was not on my mind. This time I opted to find a government specialist of skin. It took me one year to make a consultation in a Tuen Mun skin clinic, which was also known as social hygiene clinic.
Don't get me wrong, it also took care of clean people like me.
15 Sept 2012
豐子愷
I have to make good use of these weeks of acute medicine module to read something good. This time, I picked up the collection of drawing by 豐子愷.
Despite living in a chaotic era, his drawing was simplistic, describing the daily livings of common people, as well as the beauty of the country.
He did not fake. In his days, injustice and sorrows were most of the things that you can see in the streets. Old people had to make their livings on their own. Some widows had to put their newborns to the church as they could not afford to take care of them. As we all know, life is not easy. But it is not common for people to point out the problems, and show the concern.
And yet, he did not give up on love and harmony. The warm family life that he had drawn was what I am looking for: a tired father coming back from work hugged by his children; brothers playing on the grounds. Mother making clothes for her boys. Beyond the black paints on the white papers, there are so much more in the living that can be told.
Oh. What we actually miss? His drawing completed our nostalgia.
Despite living in a chaotic era, his drawing was simplistic, describing the daily livings of common people, as well as the beauty of the country.
He did not fake. In his days, injustice and sorrows were most of the things that you can see in the streets. Old people had to make their livings on their own. Some widows had to put their newborns to the church as they could not afford to take care of them. As we all know, life is not easy. But it is not common for people to point out the problems, and show the concern.
And yet, he did not give up on love and harmony. The warm family life that he had drawn was what I am looking for: a tired father coming back from work hugged by his children; brothers playing on the grounds. Mother making clothes for her boys. Beyond the black paints on the white papers, there are so much more in the living that can be told.
Oh. What we actually miss? His drawing completed our nostalgia.
11 Sept 2012
Lecture
Here I am, the most important two weeks in Med 5 for the emergency medicine. They said, if you do not know what is going on these 2 weeks, you will kill patients when you become a doctor.
I 100% agreed that a house officer is the one who is responsible for keeping patients alive until next morning. Being the first one to receive calls, he should the first person to know the conditions of the patients, and to make a corresponding plan to ensure that the patients are not dying with reversible problems.
However, is it the reason that we have to attend every lectures in these 2 weeks? Actually, the professors in-charge have posted everything he talked in the lectures on the web. Moreover, we were given a book with red cover of which the content are not just covering the lecture materials but also some supplementary ones. It is well-written and terribly simple, and reading a chapter took one around 50 minutes. Even the lecturers kept saying during their time: The red book is all you need.
Despite that the professors stress on the importance of lecture. Therefore, we have a seating plan. We are required to attend every lectures. "My talk is very important. You cannot learn without it." Something similar was what he said to me, during a conversation.
Isn't it fun?
I 100% agreed that a house officer is the one who is responsible for keeping patients alive until next morning. Being the first one to receive calls, he should the first person to know the conditions of the patients, and to make a corresponding plan to ensure that the patients are not dying with reversible problems.
However, is it the reason that we have to attend every lectures in these 2 weeks? Actually, the professors in-charge have posted everything he talked in the lectures on the web. Moreover, we were given a book with red cover of which the content are not just covering the lecture materials but also some supplementary ones. It is well-written and terribly simple, and reading a chapter took one around 50 minutes. Even the lecturers kept saying during their time: The red book is all you need.
Despite that the professors stress on the importance of lecture. Therefore, we have a seating plan. We are required to attend every lectures. "My talk is very important. You cannot learn without it." Something similar was what he said to me, during a conversation.
Isn't it fun?
9 Sept 2012
Measurement
By definition, quality is not measurable in terms of quantity. That's why there are thousands of people who wore black t-shirts staying outside the headquarter of the government to oppose the implementation of the National Education, who would score students in terms of their emotion when they look into the Chinese national flag.
It is indeed the most worrying part. I do not care about what they will teach us during the course, provided that they teach the factual information which I am sure the teachers cannot tell lie. It is in fact what have been done in the previous years of Chinese History. The way that the people teach in the Chinese History are mainly based on the secondary fact. Most of the teachers in Hong Kong do not know how to inspire students to learn more from history and how to interpret the relations between the events. It does not matter, for some cynical reason, I don't think it is something we can change at this moment.
But it is indeed how to interpret the history is more important to develop the sense of interpretation. People should ask why it is so in our history so we are not going to make the same mistakes again. If people do not think, they will not know what to comment on the history. Without opinions on the history, it will be impossible for people to develop any sense of belonging or emotion, unless they are faking.
Therefore, either the national education is trying to teach the kids how to interpret the history, or they simply ask the children to fake to score marks.
The unfortunate fact is our Chinese History is most of the time bloody, and people make the same mistakes in different eras. To make more deductions, there is hardly a chance that students who received the educations to develop a sense of belonging, unless the teachers in fact brainwashing them.
By the way, the way to brainwash the kids are simple. They can simply calla deer a horse(指鹿為馬). Again, it is something we have seen in our long and bright Chinese History.
It is indeed the most worrying part. I do not care about what they will teach us during the course, provided that they teach the factual information which I am sure the teachers cannot tell lie. It is in fact what have been done in the previous years of Chinese History. The way that the people teach in the Chinese History are mainly based on the secondary fact. Most of the teachers in Hong Kong do not know how to inspire students to learn more from history and how to interpret the relations between the events. It does not matter, for some cynical reason, I don't think it is something we can change at this moment.
But it is indeed how to interpret the history is more important to develop the sense of interpretation. People should ask why it is so in our history so we are not going to make the same mistakes again. If people do not think, they will not know what to comment on the history. Without opinions on the history, it will be impossible for people to develop any sense of belonging or emotion, unless they are faking.
Therefore, either the national education is trying to teach the kids how to interpret the history, or they simply ask the children to fake to score marks.
The unfortunate fact is our Chinese History is most of the time bloody, and people make the same mistakes in different eras. To make more deductions, there is hardly a chance that students who received the educations to develop a sense of belonging, unless the teachers in fact brainwashing them.
By the way, the way to brainwash the kids are simple. They can simply calla deer a horse(指鹿為馬). Again, it is something we have seen in our long and bright Chinese History.
1 Sept 2012
Rises
Speaking of inheritance, I cannot resist myself talking about The Dark Knight Rises.
In the end of the movie, Blake has got the direction from Bruce Wayne which led him to the Batcave. At this time, the ground raised up so the screen becomes black. If you notice it, the ground contained the equipment and the suit of the Batman, suggesting that Blake has received the heritage from Bruce Wayne and become the silent guardian for the Gotham city.
The Batman is not a hero, but it is the symbol to fight with the injustice and bring the harmony to the city. Hong Kong do not have a hero, but today there are young students fasting themselves these days to urge the government to stop their plan to pollute the kids' mind.
These three students were not having Batsuits nor possessing any supernatural powers. But what they have are the soul of our city, the inside of which always cry for freedom and justice. They had tried their best to make the most peaceful protest, caring nothing about their health for a better tomorrow of our city. Indeed, I am ashamed to see myself sitting before a computer, doing nothing.
This is the best of the time. This is the worst of the time. For the obvious reason, we see the similarity of the actions of these three students to the students who were in the square 23 years ago, who fought for the soul of the country and refused to let go.
But what worried me is the three students who had the same end, like the students in the square had that time
In the end of the movie, Blake has got the direction from Bruce Wayne which led him to the Batcave. At this time, the ground raised up so the screen becomes black. If you notice it, the ground contained the equipment and the suit of the Batman, suggesting that Blake has received the heritage from Bruce Wayne and become the silent guardian for the Gotham city.
The Batman is not a hero, but it is the symbol to fight with the injustice and bring the harmony to the city. Hong Kong do not have a hero, but today there are young students fasting themselves these days to urge the government to stop their plan to pollute the kids' mind.
These three students were not having Batsuits nor possessing any supernatural powers. But what they have are the soul of our city, the inside of which always cry for freedom and justice. They had tried their best to make the most peaceful protest, caring nothing about their health for a better tomorrow of our city. Indeed, I am ashamed to see myself sitting before a computer, doing nothing.
This is the best of the time. This is the worst of the time. For the obvious reason, we see the similarity of the actions of these three students to the students who were in the square 23 years ago, who fought for the soul of the country and refused to let go.
But what worried me is the three students who had the same end, like the students in the square had that time
Inheritance
Time has never been so short for one to reckon his first day in the school as if it was yesterday.
Things have changed. Legends have gone. Values seemingly have been lost. I had not been worried too much about the situation, for I used to think that, whatever it is, I am not the one who could change it, and I do not know who has the power to change the attitude of the people in this generation.
Perhaps it is still early to distinct myself from the people who are just admitted to the school, and the juniors who just finished their year one. Some friends of mine do clearly know what is the difference between us and them. Us and them. It sounds like we are of different species.
The only worrying part was that the value of my senior MT and CK who had my uttermost respect could have lost and no one could have retrieved them. Their wisdom and virtue were not seen for years. Now that they have become interns, and if there are really someone that can not be replaced, they are.
But surprisingly, I saw the light yesterday with a KS who led the group, who had the caring to the juniors and the respect to the seniors. She made me recall of how CK picked us to the ground and played. The group in my year was not playful. And I do not remember what the fun was in my orientation camp. But CK was always in my mind. Her sincerity was always shining in the dark time of ours. Her core value, whatever you call it is, has kept in my heart throughout this year, motivating me to move forward and encouraging me to strive for the best.
I am glad that someone has bore up the heritage from our generation. That's the only thing I want to see.
Things have changed. Legends have gone. Values seemingly have been lost. I had not been worried too much about the situation, for I used to think that, whatever it is, I am not the one who could change it, and I do not know who has the power to change the attitude of the people in this generation.
Perhaps it is still early to distinct myself from the people who are just admitted to the school, and the juniors who just finished their year one. Some friends of mine do clearly know what is the difference between us and them. Us and them. It sounds like we are of different species.
The only worrying part was that the value of my senior MT and CK who had my uttermost respect could have lost and no one could have retrieved them. Their wisdom and virtue were not seen for years. Now that they have become interns, and if there are really someone that can not be replaced, they are.
But surprisingly, I saw the light yesterday with a KS who led the group, who had the caring to the juniors and the respect to the seniors. She made me recall of how CK picked us to the ground and played. The group in my year was not playful. And I do not remember what the fun was in my orientation camp. But CK was always in my mind. Her sincerity was always shining in the dark time of ours. Her core value, whatever you call it is, has kept in my heart throughout this year, motivating me to move forward and encouraging me to strive for the best.
I am glad that someone has bore up the heritage from our generation. That's the only thing I want to see.
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