Truth

The truth is, no matter I am in the peak or the trough of my life, the one I missed have not been with me all along. With this point, I am confident to say that I should not care about it from now on. To reignite the life, I must go on.

1 year

Yes. I know it. I count the date. Around the same time last year, I saw you for the last time, probably in my lifetime.

Our technology has made us saw each other's face without really meeting each other. That's right. That's what is to go on in our decades and centuries. People will never meet each other. Instead of it, they text in the phones and they look at the photos from the screens. This is what is meant to be. Evolution.

You still look like who you were last year. I am sure, you ARE still who you are. Travelling through the psyche of human beings, you just know where to go and where to stay. Time and space do not matter, as long as there is there spirit that is carrying you.

It is just me who changed a lot. I am getting more fragile and fatigue. My injury will probably stop me from going up the hill and see you. My mind is getting strong, but no strong enough to say any word from my mouth. I have been speechless for long time. Nothing really deserves my attention and life is just dull. My heart just don't pump enough blood to activate my dying neurons in the brain. What is left, is just a mere robot with decaying flesh.

This is a story in one year.

Do not go gentle into that good night

Dylan Thomas, 1914 - 1953

Do not go gentle into that good night,
Old age should burn and rave at close of day;
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Though wise men at their end know dark is right,
Because their words had forked no lightning they
Do not go gentle into that good night.

Good men, the last wave by, crying how bright
Their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight,
And learn, too late, they grieved it on its way,
Do not go gentle into that good night.

Grave men, near death, who see with blinding sight
Blind eyes could blaze like meteors and be gay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

And you, my father, there on the sad height,
Curse, bless, me now with your fierce tears, I pray.
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

AD

I think I might need to have an advance directive, should the operation goes wrong.

I think that my life might as well end if I can't even play football, or run. In short, football IS my life.

Let's do it in GA. If the surgery get screwed up, then they better inject me sedative to let me sleep, forever.

But when I look at how resilient the world class football players are after their ACL surgery. I think I need to give my life a chance. To resurrect myself from the sorrow, I need to become stronger mentally. To stop myself breaking into pieces, I need to pick myself up and gather as a whole.

Let's fight!

My dear

To tell you the truth, my dear.

After knowing that I need a operation, I just don't miss you anymore.

This is the first time, after I met you, when I had some changes in my life, your face did not pop-up.

I have learnt how to let you go.

Murph

The core of Interstellar is about the interpretation of the famous Murphy's Law, typically stated as what can go wrong can go wrong.

In the movie it is mentioned as: whatever can happen, will happen. It is much more positive than that we know about Murphy's Law.

To compare and contrast, I would like to also draw a Chinese cliche 人生不如意事十常八九. On the other hand, we will eventually have one fantastic thing going around us, despite living in hell.

The director actually have a point. They talk about the possibilities in lives that we might not see it. It is like something amazing behind the black hole, which not even light can escape. Our future is always uncertain. Even different possibilities there are of course stony paths, but it is us that cannot see the bright side from the horizon.

The same applies to the umbrella movement, and various acts that fight for a better tomorrow.

Notwithstanding the apparent stability of our mankind nowadays, storms are coming. Our future does not look quite right in terms of politics, economies and environments. Somehow, a dystopian movie spreads a positive message that is always true: there has always a way out. There has to be another world if we are to pass through the black hole, however we don't know what will happen on that other side.

Injury

My knee hurts.

With an unexpected football game, with an unexpected challenge and unexpected fall, my knee hurts.

This not only stopped me from playing the game, this could stopped me from training for the half marathon.

Sigh. Sports are supposed to be my escape from life.